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you got a heart that's born with a beat
you forget how to breathe? ❞ I WANNA GET THAT THING RUNNIN'! ![]() ➤ leave me a comment asking for one of my muses in the subject line. |
you forget how to breathe? ❞ I WANNA GET THAT THING RUNNIN'! ![]() ➤ leave me a comment asking for one of my muses in the subject line. |
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it's a normal thing for his people to go to, to find their soulmates, but eijun's journey hadn't really been all that easy. for starters, his soulmate was a jerk: this was not what he was expecting when he looked at his mom and his dad, saw how happy and in love they were. it was frustrating, and no matter how much he stomped and grumbled about it, in the end, eijun had to deal with it. he couldn't go home, so he was stuck with miyuki kazuya.
things got worse before they got better. but since then, they've changed a lot.
it's been slow and tentative, a warm arm over his side in the dark of night, some of eijun's glow coming back. he hadn't really noticed that it was gone, but to outsiders it must have been obvious, because sawamura eijun is always, somehow, a little bit, glowing. and for a while, he went out.
now, he's glowing again, just faintly, enough to leave a halo around him in the dark night. he has absolutely no idea where kazuya is taking him as usual, but he's always game, even if he complains.
(even if he complains, he doesn't let go of his hands. even with his brows furrowed, pouting a little, he still shines.) ] Where are we going? C'mon, give me a hint!!
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After all, that means that there's someone out there - in this case, Eijun - that's saddled with him. He doesn't want that to happen to someone else, because he can't say he likes himself very much, but another part of him, one that he buries deep, likes it. At least a little bit. (It's the lonely part of him that he covers with his shitty grin and mocking laughs and hidden self-loathing. It likes the idea of there being someone that'll make him a little less lonely.)
But, right now, he's going to at least play the part. After all, he fucked up so badly that it resulted in someone else hurting, and that's... Miyuki might act like he doesn't have a heart, sometimes, because it's easier, but he still has one. And the guilt had been palpable.
So here he is, trying to make amends, and feeling something like a hot vice squeezing in his chest as he takes in Eijun's renewed glow. Even faint, it's a relief to see it, and he laughs a little at his pout. ]
You probably won't recognize it, to be honest.